Well being a student has it’s perks for sure. Like, being able to learn as much as you can, expand your mind, get closer to a desired goal, meet new people and get lots of coffee from the cafeteria. But, there are down sides to being a student. For example, the end of semester… People get crazy. Well, at least I do. I have to complete 8 assignments and a work shop in the next week and a half… Please send me good vibes!
In all seriousness I have been quite stressed out and vulnerable in my role as a student. I know I will make it through, but that doesn’t calm my tension every time I have to hand in a paper, project or write a terrifying exam. I love what I am studying and I can’t imagine doing anything else with my life… So I am willing to work really hard.
This day was one of the busiest and rainiest yet… I dressed to match. Nothing about my outfit was particularly glamourous… But, it kept me warm, dry and comfortable. I spent most of the evening upstairs in my bedroom constructing a poster for my program evaluation tomorrow. S came over to make me laugh and entertain my dog Billie. It was awesome and I achieved all my goals that I set for today. Maybe it was due to the fact that my outfit was SO functional… I couldn’t fail.
So, today I chose to wear my dark wash mavi serena skinny jeans, a grey deep V- Neck T shirt and a mint coloured sweater that I scored at the thrift store. I thought it was cute… And that is all that matters. Also, I was warm. That’s most important.
At first I was really bummed about having to make a poster in college… Part of me still is. But, in all reality it gave me a reason to stop being so academic and be creative again! It was great and the fact that S was sitting on my bed making me laugh made it even better!
I woke up to face a kinda bummerish day, but it turned out for the best and I was laughing incredibly hard by the end of it. Mostly at my dog…
But, laughing with my best friend was the perfect medicine. She is a wonderful support network, always cheers on my creative ideas and always up for a laugh. I am so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. I just need to keep reminding myself of that as I move through each stage of my life. I have people rooting for me… Rudi can’t fail!
So, to all you babes out there that feel like your drowning under large expectations, you’re a warrior… But even warriors need to lean on somebody.
Asking for help is not a sign of weakness, it’s a courageous strength. I need to remind myself of that everyday.